Infected and Affected 
        by Patricia Lukamba Waliaula / go back to Third Issue
      I clearly remember that day. The day when my innocent bum  got a thorough beating that cost me the ability to sit for almost three days  and made me dread ever going back to school. So what or who caused such  animosity upon me?
      The day was 23rd of March 1991 when I proudly  boasted of being in Standard Five at our local school, St. Chrispins Primary  School of Little Angels.
      I was known to be a leader of a notorious girls’ group and  as much as my parents constantly handled cases in school when summoned, they  never could make me quit this unpopular group. I totally pledged allegiance to  my sorority.
      We called ourselves the ‘Sinasinos’ which in my local mother  tongue meant ‘What is this?’ It’s a funny, rather weird name but the reason  behind it was because the girls and I just loved to laugh at anything and make  fun of everything.
      At one time we got into trouble for laughing at a Standard One  pupil, in panic of being late, accidentally arrived at school only with his  underpants on! The little boy, on realizing what others were laughing at, cried  uncontrollably and had to be taken back home.
      At another time, we put our whole class into trouble when we  smeared cow dung on the teacher’s chair, and what humor and glee it was when he  stood up and gave his back to us to write on the chalkboard.
      Of course the teacher did not take it lightly and subjected  us to more than enough torture where he banished us to the school farm for a  whole day to do some digging in preparation for the planting season.
      That was punishment to me because I hated the sticky feeling  of sweat and the prickly effect of the sun’s heat. My girls and I just could  not help getting into trouble. It was as if trouble was our middle name.
      The Sinasinos were exactly that…disaster waiting to happen.  It was on a Saturday evening having just left school for our weekend tuition  and extra reading, and walking in a group, we decided to pass through the  market place for some communal sugarcane before heading home. When I say “we,”  I without a doubt refer to “we the Sinasinos.”
        
        We arrived at the market centre and me being the sugarcane  expert, having nominated myself as one, picked up stick after stick critically  scrutinizing them as if that would have any effect on the taste.
      I remember coming across a slender piece of sugarcane,  picked it up and began laughing like an extremely mad man.
      All attention shifted to me as laughing was our group’s  trademark and no one wanted to be left out. My friends gave me the ‘what is it ‘look  as other market users clicked and moved away murmuring under their breadth at  how bad mannered I was.
      “Hey, stop the suspense,” exclaimed an already irritated  Isha who was our group’s vice chair lady. “Feed us in on the joke,” she endingly  retorted. I tried to compose myself but still managed to let out few stifles of  laughter and grunt here and there. Finally I let it out, “Looking at this  slender piece of sugarcane, whom does it remind you of?”
      A moment of connection silence followed then seconded by a  chant of “Mr. Mwancha!” and the third sequence of action need not be mentioned;  we all burst out into uncontrollable laughter.
      Seeing the stir we were causing, we quickly paid for our  identified cane and hurriedly walked away from the now growing irritated stares  and mumbles.
      Isha picked up the 411 conversation (as we called all our  juicy rib-tickler pieces) and continued it.
      “Indeed Mr. Mwancha has grown very thin theses days. I  thought I was the only one who had noticed! You know what? Every time he holds  up a piece of chalk to write on the board, I silently under my breath say a  prayer for him that the chalk’s weight does not pull him down!”(Laughter).
      “Have you also noticed that his clothes have become oversize  and I could swear his belt goes round his waist three times!” (Laughter and  more laughter).
      “Ah Isha, I can see you have been very attentive in Mr.  Mwancha’s Mathematics class!”
      (Actually Isha always scored the least marks in this subject.  It was now dawning upon me where she really  had her concentration. Nonetheless, Mr. Mwancha was the best Mathematics  teacher our school and Province had ever had, and Isha’s self-defense that  Mwancha was the problem could no longer stand.)
      Isha being the cartoon that she was continued her  retortations causing us to laugh even louder especially when she began  imitating Mr. Mwancha’s walking style and his uncontrollable coughing as he  took us through his subject.
      One by one we parted ways as each approached their home but  still recounting the parting shot of the day.
      The next morning during Mr. Mwancha’s class, Isha decided to  carry forward the previous day’s event into continuation. She scribbled notes  and circulated them amongst the Sinasinos members who once in a while would let  out muffled laughter. This activity went on until when Mr. Mwancha unexpectedly  turned around from writing on the chalkboard and saw me receiving a folded note  from Isha.
      I froze in my seat, my bladder almost letting loose, as I  lost feeling in my legs and my hands became dead stiff. Busted! 
      Mwancha walked up to me not losing his gaze on the folded  piece of paper, snatched it from my now weakened  grasp and slowly opened it amidst the watch  and silence of the other pupils. Pin drop silence engulfed the atmosphere. Upon  reading the little note, he did the most unexpected thing that made me realize  this time round, we were in big trouble. Very big trouble. His head raised up  to the heavens, he took in a big breath, slowly let it out, clenched and  unclenched his fists, again looked at me , with the note in his hand, took his  books and other learning materials that he had come to class with and quietly  walked out.
      Phew! I thought. At least that was over and done with but I  could swear during the Mwancha-and-me gaze, my Mathematics teacher’s eyes from  a distance glistened with tears.
      “Oh well!” I consoled myself. “Am sure glad that is over”.
      By now the class was very noisy with pupils having  surrounded my desk wanting to know what was in that note. The bell for the next  class rang and all quietly settled down as the English teacher walked in. However,  just before the class ended and we were dispersed for break, the school  messenger walked in, whispered into the English teacher’s ear, and I was  stunned when she called out my name and requested me to follow the messenger  immediately.
      I found myself in the Headmaster’s office, a place I always  dreaded to be. He took a look at me and retorted. “What were you thinking?” I  decided to play dumb and innocent as if I did not know what he was talking  about until he pulled out the folded note from his table drawer.
      To cut short the long story, I ended up confessing the names  of all who had partaken in the notes writing and circulating. The beatings that  we got made me regret ever being the chair lady and founder of the Sinasinos  group.
      But the next day was an even more dramatic one. We were  called impromptu to assemble at the parade grounds, and the Headmaster went  ahead to announce the sudden death of Mr. Mwancha.
      Wails and tears immediately followed as the Headmaster went  ahead to narrate how Mwancha had died. Mr. Mwancha’s family had woken up early  to find him hanging atop the kitchen fireplace, and upon raising alarm, the neighbors  rushed in to the shock, as the police were immediately summoned.
      Mr. Mwancha had left a suicide note that I recall went  something like this: 
      I have  lived and suffered. I have tried tolerating the ridicule, humiliation and  stigmatization, 
        but my ego  and inner man can take it no longer. Perhaps my death may be a revolution for  the 
        future of  those living with HIV/AIDS. Take care of my wife and children. Till we meet  again, 
        bye for  now. 
        J.  Mwancha.
      That was when I first got to hear about HIV/AIDS. And that  was also when St. Chrispins Primary School of Little Angels began to see the  effects of the lack of a professional Mathematics teacher. Mr. Mwancha had been  the best Mathematics teacher that the school had ever had, making Mathematics  seem simpler than the ABC and making everyone believe that numbers were fun and  easy to work with. His demise greatly affected the school’s and pupils’  performance.
      His wife had been a fulltime housewife and could not effectively  provide for their children, as they had all fully depended on Mr. Mwancha as  the breadwinner.
      Mwancha’s death birthed a curiosity in me that made me make  more enquiries on what HIV/AIDS was.
      As much as I will never forget the stinging effect of the Headmaster’s  cane, I will also always remember Mr. Mwancha’s burial day: a white coffin, tears,  wreaths, and more wreaths.
      As the coffin was slowly lowered into the grave, his wife  and orphaned children stood nearby huddled together and moaning uncontrollably.  The death of her husband and children’s father heavily weighing upon her. Just  this sight was so remourseful and when the priest read out of the Bible, “Dust  to dust, ash to ash. Just as we were created out of dust shall we return back  to the same dust…..” I looked around, and even as young as I was, my mind  reconnected; the infected left others affected.
      I used my grabby dirty handkerchief to wipe the now freely  flowing tears and mucus on my face and hurriedly ran to join the procession  that was quietly walking away from the graveside.
      I turned around to give the grave a last look and whispered  under my breath,” Rest in peace Mwalimu."  
      All that was left of a great village legend and achiever was  now represented by a great mound of soil and some withering leaves and flowers  that struggled to remain open in the hot afternoon sun. 
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      Patricia Lukamba  Waliaula is a 23 year old law graduate of Moi University, Kenya. Currently  she is on internship with World VisionKenya and enjoys reading and writing as her  part time activities.